Sunday, March 27, 2011

What do I want to be when I grow up?

By my age most people already have their life planned: their schooling finished or almost finished and their career paths started or on the road to them. So why am I so undecided?

Do you remember the first thing you wanted to be when you grew up? At the age of 5 I just knew that I would be the next Reba McIntire, I sounded just like here after all. ;) Well as it turned out, I didn't sound like her at all, thanks to a good friend for letting me know "that I couldn't carry a tune in a bucket." If only some of the 1st week contestants on American Idol had friends like that!
From there I aspired to be anything from a Marine Biologist to an Archealogist. I had big plans.
When I started college in 2003 I decided that I wanted to be a Crime Scence Investigator, just like on the show CSI. Well there is something about living in a small town in AR that made me realize that I wouldn't get far doing that here. I also realized that I wanted a family more than anything and that would not be a job I could not bring home with me. So I quit school because of laziness and a change in major.
Now I am a SAHM and am thinking about going back to school. I just dont know what I want to do. I know that by the time my kiddos are in school i want to have a career of some sort. I know that I want to be the type of mom that is home when they get out of school, with snack on the table for them and all their friends. I want to be a soccor mom. I want to have time to go to all their games and school functions. I want to be mom first. So why do i still need a career? Why do I still need to be able to say that I have gone to school? A Title? I would love to just go to school and take a few classes I am interested in, but then what? What do I do with them? What would I do while my children are in school? Do I settle for a part time job? Would anyone hire me for the specific hours I would need?
Should I just be a lunch lady?
I am having a hard time knowing exactly what i want to do, I only know that I want to be Mom First.

Well We Did it, We got a Minivan!