By my age most people already have their life planned: their schooling finished or almost finished and their career paths started or on the road to them. So why am I so undecided?
Do you remember the first thing you wanted to be when you grew up? At the age of 5 I just knew that I would be the next Reba McIntire, I sounded just like here after all. ;) Well as it turned out, I didn't sound like her at all, thanks to a good friend for letting me know "that I couldn't carry a tune in a bucket." If only some of the 1st week contestants on American Idol had friends like that!
From there I aspired to be anything from a Marine Biologist to an Archealogist. I had big plans.
When I started college in 2003 I decided that I wanted to be a Crime Scence Investigator, just like on the show CSI. Well there is something about living in a small town in AR that made me realize that I wouldn't get far doing that here. I also realized that I wanted a family more than anything and that would not be a job I could not bring home with me. So I quit school because of laziness and a change in major.
Now I am a SAHM and am thinking about going back to school. I just dont know what I want to do. I know that by the time my kiddos are in school i want to have a career of some sort. I know that I want to be the type of mom that is home when they get out of school, with snack on the table for them and all their friends. I want to be a soccor mom. I want to have time to go to all their games and school functions. I want to be mom first. So why do i still need a career? Why do I still need to be able to say that I have gone to school? A Title? I would love to just go to school and take a few classes I am interested in, but then what? What do I do with them? What would I do while my children are in school? Do I settle for a part time job? Would anyone hire me for the specific hours I would need?
Should I just be a lunch lady?
I am having a hard time knowing exactly what i want to do, I only know that I want to be Mom First.
3 comments:
Hey cuz :) I really liked this blog...I think it's because its a question a lot of mom's ask themselves at some point. You first have to ask yourself why you feel you need a degree. Are you doing it just to say you have one or because it's always been a goal of yours. I will tell you for me graduating from college is something I am proud of myself for. I always think, "If I can graduate college...a goal I never thought I would ever accomplish, I can do anything." Just because you're a mom doesn't mean a higher education is out the door. I went to college with a mom of 2 and she dropped out of college @ a young age to have a family as well...she waited until her kids were well into school and she picked back up. Also remember you can take it slow...a few classes here and there...but a degree does not define you by any means. With or without, you a smart, beautiful, and a wonderful mother.
I don't think that I have ever really knew what I wanted to be. I got married without a degree and raised my son. Somewhere in the middle I started taking a class here and a class there. Little did I know that this would be the best thing that I could have done because later on I got divorced. I am thankful that I was able to complete my degree while being a stay at home mom. The right thing to do will come to you soon enough.
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Marsha
Thank you! I think I have decided to just take some classes that interest me and let my heart lead me from there. Whats important is that I am here for my children, thats truly what matters to me!
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